I'm tired.....so tired...

[UEC]

AND THIS CAMPUS IS TO FUCKING BIG!!!!!!!!!!!It;s like.. 1/4 of a mile just to Mikes/Steve/JD's.... and the cafe not conveniently near... and I need water.. and no vending machine is near me.. got to go accross the lot to Zinfindell... E. Metzler (UEC)Duke of Brookshire"Never use a BOO/\/\ist as a diplomat" -- GSClicky Clicky..., Tiss for your own good ya know.

[UEC]

The last few... days... maybe 4..5.. have been really .. just.. AGH!... Emotionally UP DOWN UP DOWN UP DOWN...DOWN...Down.. ..up... DOWN...down....up.. down....Between moving.. leaving my gf (physically, not romanticly..), my friends... my room and it's comfort... Going to meetings I don't want to... Having unresolved issues back home...some small.. some large... Not eating enough, not drinking enough... (and I've been trying...) Being lonely.. (despite my sophmore friends..)... I feel so alone everywhere I go... people are way more socialable than me.. and I get left ..left out.. and so just end up isolating myself.. and even at like.. Vamp.. I showed up.. peopel started hugin and greeting Mike and Steve.. and I just stood there... They all got their contacts here.. and I don't.. except them.. and proly won't till classes... I found out this morning a game online.. that I was working hard in.. since... almost a month ago..was in 3rd place... and could maybe stay there... I was taken out by a guy who's only goal in the game was to make life hard for people.. and I can't rebuild... like ego would dictate.. no use... I'll just be wiped out before I get that far... I lost over 3 Trillian Credits.. Which is ALOT.. and my Ship.. worth several Billions.. if not a trillian... The ship was on the same planet as the credits.. get the planet.. get the ship.. which was protecting the credits... He wiped me out.. I don't have enough to rebuild my ship... or my empire... so I'm not bothering.... I learned Aure joined the Baracaoans... that kinda stings... I feel bad she left Shireroth.. but to join Baracao when she did return... Kinda angers me too... She WAS Shirerithian... guess not.. Now she's just a commie. I have no love of communist Micronations.. I don't think I've ever had good dealings with them... and it makes me sad that she is now one of them... maybe she'll come round and leave them and return to us... her friends... till than...I'm rambling..... Sorry... Well.. It IS.. my Duchy.. I can whine if I wish... E. Metzler (UEC)Duke of Brookshire"Never use a BOO/\/\ist as a diplomat" -- GSClicky Clicky..., Tiss for your own good ya know.

[UEC]

And no3 I just completely Fucked myself over... I killed off my means to IM people... I was cleaning out my Trillian away messages... did something wrong... was displeased.. decided to just Dl and reinstall it.. got a NEW version.. not the old one.. I wanted... so I'm stuck with it. cause my other comp has the DL archive with the old trillian... Than.. I tried to just delete the trillian dirrectory and start over... Not realizing.. I just lost my contact lists....Now.. AIM won't let me on.. MSN won't let me on.. I have No ICQ contacts... I'm fucked!!!!!!!And all the solutions.. are on.. ANOTHER computer.. at home... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrFUCking AIM.. won't let me log on for 15 minutes.. and every time I try.. it just starts counting the 15 min again.. I HATE THE WORLD!!!!!.. Why does everything have to go wrong that I touch right now...So I have No AIM, No ICQ... NO MSN... Just..everything is dead!...Luckily.. I saved my log files... So I could proly rebuild my ICQ list from that.... If I wanted too...But on the bright side.. I fixed what I had set out to fix in the first place... E. Metzler (UEC)Duke of Brookshire"Never use a BOO/\/\ist as a diplomat" -- GSClicky Clicky..., Tiss for your own good ya know.

[Kaiseress Jadie]

*gives Erik a huge hug*If you remember correctly..I gave you a huge hug when I saw you...and I called you after I unpacked!! So don't say you feel lonely! You do have friends that care!!We all went out to dinner....and then you went to Big night with Steve and Mike! I would have gone with you but I was exhausted....So try to look on the bright side of things Erik...not the negative. Also you wil have your bike soon...so it won't be that long before you can get here a lot faster...and you wanna know the sad part? SSU is a really small campus compared to schools like Davis and Berkeley! So be happy!

[Gryphon Avocatio]

Santa Cruz (the only campus I'm remotely familiar with) is so big that it has to use busses to get students around...Erik! I miss you. Ica and I drove by (the general area of) your house Saturday night. And now you aren't there. It's weird. -Gryphon Avocatio- Anarch and Duke of all Yardistan - Minister of Imigration and Naturalisation, Shireroth - Shirerothian Elder - "Minsiter of Dance, Pants and Funny Walks" - SAVE THE KIWI!! God save our gracious Queen, long live our noble Queen, God save the Queen. Send her victorious, happy and glorious, long to reign over us; God save the Queen. Thy choicest gifts in store On her be pleased to pour, Long may she reign.May she defend our laws, And ever give us cause To sing with heart and voice God save the Queen.

[UEC]

I never went with them to big night... They stopped by Vampire and stayed there for a while... I got bored and left.. since I didn't know anyone.. or have anything to do...I miss you and Ica too Nick... and Isa most of all... E. Metzler (UEC)Duke of Brookshire"Never use a BOO/\/\ist as a diplomat" -- GSClicky Clicky..., Tiss for your own good ya know.